Monday, 12 September 2011

• breaking up and moving on

  I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years.  We would argue every couple of months but they would be really bad arguments ( he called me so many names (cunt, horrible swearing at me).  He is very impulsive and his behavior is unpredictable.  He has also been disrespectful to my mother.  

   Anyway, it was extremely hard for me to break up after that even though it really was an unhealthy relationship full of disrespect and emotional abuse.  I'm trying to move on and I've become a lot closer to this guy i have known for a few years.  He treats me well and shows so much respect for me.  I feel like i've been so hurt by my ex boyfriend that i am so afraid to accept this sweet guy.  I feel like that the only guy who would ever want to be with me forever would be my ex or any other guy who is abusive.  i know this sounds weird but that's what the relationship has done to me.  I've grown to think that a sweet guy won't stay with me forever.  I don't really know what advice i'm looking for. I'm just scared that i will constantly think about my ex and all the good times we had and miss him, even though i know that it would continue to get worse and worse being with him.  The guy i've become closer to knows all about my previous relationship and he has been hurt as well by his ex girlfriend so he understands my insecurities which i really find amazing.  When will I start to trust a healthy relationship??  I'm honestly afraid that i just won't be able to move on from this abusive guy.  It took me so long to finally end it but then i just think that anything good that comes won't last.

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